Times Keep Going

I've kinda been slacking with my blog posts...I just can't seem to narrow down specific things I want to write about.  There is so much in this mind of mine that if I were to just write everything that was in my mind all at once, it would be like throw up! Everything just spewed out and all mixed together with all sorts of this and that all mixed together. 

So with that in mind....

Today Nicole and I went school shopping for her.  I can't believe she is now a senior in high school.  she is my baby who will now be graduating in June!  I will no longer have any children in school (not including college).  I only have 9 more months of waking up at 4:30 in the morning to make sure she is up and getting ready for seminary and school.  I remember thinking back 7 years ago when I was dropping Breanne off that I had so much longer to do this and wasn't thrilled about it then...those 7 years are now here!  I can't believe it!  I'm not happy that summer is over!  I don't think I'm ready for her to be grown up.  It makes me sad and confused because I don't feel that I should have 3 adult children. 

I know life is always changing and we are suppose to learn from all the changes, but in all honestly I haven't been ready for my children to grow up.  I wish they were still little and dependent on me like they were for so long.  I worry about them all the time, especially Breanne and Adam because they are so far away from home.  I know they are okay, it's just a mom thing I suppose to worry about your children always.  I can't imagine what I'll be like when I have grandchildren....but no rush to have some any time soon!

 I just hope that my family will always be close to one another.  I envy families who are close to one another and spend time often together.  That is something I have always desired for my family. I have watched Josh's family over the years and they aren't close at all.  I don't want that for my family.  I know that families have differences, but they can still get along and show love and encouragement to one another...isn't that what family is for?

(So if my family happens to read this, please do everything you can to stay close to one another...pick up the phone and call each other often.  Spend time with each other like you did when you were little and build memories with one another that you and your children always remember as well.  Oh...and take pictures to remember those times together!)

For some reason these things weigh heavy on my mind because I see so many families who I work with at work that don't get along.  Families say that we don't talk to so and so, but you are welcome to try.  I just don't get it, but I have seen it happen in Josh's family, which is sad!

I guess the point I'm trying to make with this is...families are always changing and growing.  Reminiscing on families growing up and leaving is very hard.  A child's first friend is their siblings, so staying close to one another to keep a family unit strong is a wish I'd hope my children will do forever...