Accepting Change

I could write a book about my life thus far. It would befull of action, adventure, love AND most definitely drama. Isn't that what makes the best of stories? It could even be made into a movie that everyone would love and talk about seeing! Men would love it for the action as well as the adventure. And well woman would just love it! I have accepted everything I have been through in life, heck its made me who I am today. Honestly I think I'm a pretty good person who has a lot of wisdom when it comes to life and life experiences. With those experiences though, I wasn't prepared for the changes that come with my children becoming adults. The past few months I have been really struggling with the idea of having adults who are in my eyes and heart still my babies. I suppose no matter what they will always be my little child who I will want to take care of, no matter what. I want so desperately to give my children the world, but I can't and haven't been able to. I don't think that is wrong either, but at times it seems like my children don't realise some of the sacrifices that have been made just for them. I'm hoping on day they will truly appreciate what I have done for them. As for accepting them for being adults, know I have to, but it is so hard. Right now on a regular basis I want more than anything to be able to spend as much time together as a family. Adam will be leaving in April to go to school in Larame, WY. He will be far away from home without me there to take care of him or to make sure he his eating, has clean clothes, his room is clean and everything else a mom does on a regular basis. I suppose it isn't just that. I want to believe that him going off to school will give him a better appreciation of home. But who knows, all we can do is wait see. I'm not sure if my girls think like Adam does. Breanne has goals, drive and a vision for the future. She doesn't mind being around family and doing activities with us. Maybe its because she was actually away from us when we were living in Washington and knows what its like to be away from us. In my mind I'm hoping that the case. Although we left home, she never did she was the smart one! ;) Nicole tends to go back and forth. I know it's because of her age. That's what most teenagers do. They want you then they need their space... So needless to say accepting these changes has been hard for me to accept, but I am willing to keep working on the changes of my adult children. I'm just patiently waiting for,"Mom, Dad you were right! I should have listened to you!" One day it will come,.it always does, especially when they see how good their lives were despite the difficulties and craziness we have lived together!!! I have to add though...as I write this on my phone, sitting in the car late at night on a road trip to Northern Utah to spend the weekend with my extended family, I am totally thankful that my family is all together couped up in the car for a short weekend trip TOGETHER!!!